OMFG, JILLIBEAN

( week in review ) 


It was pretty decent. I started looking at FSU's website. I want to go there so badly. Current plan: Be roomies with Lauren. Taryn and Haylee are going.
( Stuff I'll bring to University in three years )


I'm freaking excited.

in one of my old posts, i called marcus lovely.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

no. i'm just being silly. marcus is pretty neat albeit being marcus. 

Reading old posts from last year
1. makes me depressed
2. reminds me of how awesome I am with order forms and flyars
3. makes me angry at myself 

matt getting a boner is the highlight of my night

I want the kind of guy that would tell me "To hell with valetine's, to hell with perfume, to hell with chocolates and picnics and Sinatra tunes" and invite me to crash a party.

:(



by the way favorite song of the now

Lauren: Jill I have a surprise for you!
[Lauren hands her phone to her dad and I don't know]
Me: Is it a dick in a box? Is it a cat in a hat?
Lauren: JILL I JUST HANDED THE PHONE TO MY DAD AHAHAHAHA

look at that fucking love connection.

The three greatest things in the world- The Format, History, and Harry Potter.
Throw in a York Patty and Diet Mountain Dew.
You get a very blissful Jillian.

Today, I am applying to hogwarts_elite !
I'm pretty excited! I'll be happy with whatever house I get sorted into,
but I certainly hope I don't get deemed a squib!
This should be really fun!

-sing "michelle" by the beatles to mrs heck.
-pinch mr hannah's cheeks
-see nate ruess on the street in nyc (SON OF A CRAP)
-see paul mccartney in concert (OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDD ARE YOU KIDDING)
-more things like fja
-befriend the yearbook editor so i can totally make the yearbook hilarious
-have an anti-prom
-get the ib diploma

Today.

• AP World- We wrote an essay and Lauren wrote about pandas instead of the Mughal, Ottoman, and/or Safavid empires. She wasn't going to turn it in but I made her so she had to face the consequences.
• Band- We rehearsed in the auditorium. Nathan was hangin' out in the seating parts and I swear on Allah's wang that Nathan. Kept. Looking at me. Ughhhhhhhhhh. ;-;
• Spear- Cheered Taryn up! She told me that Shane (percussion instructor) was like "Hey did you get a haircut?" and Nathan was like "Yeah" and Shane said "Looks good, bro." AND THEN THEY SHOOK HANDS HAHAHA.
• Aviation- Got counted absent since I hate sitting in my assigned seat, so I stood between Sam and Marissa. We watched a thing about relativity and the expanding universe. Got mindfucked a little bit, yeah?
• English- We had a vocab test and Lauren was freaking out and then we started Romeo & Juliet!!! <3
• Biology- Still don't understand RNA and shit, so I talked with Katie and Bethany about how much ass our show next year will suck. Props? Really?
• Lunch- ...Was fabulous. Left Justin a voicemail with Taryn.
• Geometry- Did nothing again even though we had a packet to do. I won't need geometry augh. So I talked to Bethany, Hannah, and Cydnee!
• Spanish- Conjugation <3 But I was really hungry since I hadn't eaten and we're studying food and eating manners.

Then I got home after hanging out with Taryn before her indoor rehearsal. Rowie was like "hey go get a sub" so I walked to Subway and got a Veggie Delight. :3
Then I babbysat and ugh it was so long. (thats what sheeee saaaaid.) (while i typed that, bethany got on aim ahahaha.) But I got paid ten bucks and Heather and I talked about majors and IB.

Tomorrow profe is picking me up at 6:30 because the school needs 75 boxes, and I'm the only kid who advertises the fact that she has a LOT of boxes. :)
Awesome k.

There are times in life where I feel the need to read a non-canonly shipped Harry Potter fanfic. Tonight it was Krum/Ginny.

Also, it kinda sucks that I keep finding things I have in common with boys and thinking that we would be such a good match BUT it wouldn't work out because I mean no one wants to date me lololol
But I'm not too terribly bothered by it. I don't care a whole lot. I'm not bent on marrying and popping out a few puppies.

I take everything said generally personally. I should stop that. I guess I'm really really paranoid.
Whatever.


I'm pretty much missing old DCOMS and Lizzie McGuire, guhhhh.

This summer amelianh and I are going to dress up as wizard pirates. Our town has this excuse for adults to get wasted/festival in celebration of Billy Bowlegs, who is maybe a fictional character. It's basically A) fireworks, B) a parade that shows off how rich the lawyers and doctors are, C) booze, D) scavenger hunt.

• pool wizardry, etc
• drink lots of sparkling apple cider
• make a fort of boxes
• sneak on a float for the parade
• dominate the hunt
• go to the indian temple mound museum
• go to the library and camwhore with the books
• scream of Montreal lyrics downtown
• blow bubbles
• be awesome overall

Amelia we should do all this. :}
Like, we should also ride the city bus sometime. And go to the beach when it warms up!

Edit: nvm

Alright, so. Kristi, Ashley, Taryn and I stood in my driveway for about twenty minutes. It was okay.
They took ze boxes. I got invited to a bonfire but I can't go because I'm grounded for ordering boxes.



This week is proof of how awesome I am!

Today I woke up super early and Kathryn and I put up fliers that said "FJA - Fellowship of Jewish Athletes - The fastest growing jewish club in America" all around school.
And people thought it was real.

...That was so beautiful.

I'm spending the afternoon listening to older mixes Taryn made me.
She writes comments under some songs on the track listing.

"12. A Sentence of Sorts in Kongsvinger- of Montreal
You might like them :)"

Little did she know that by the end of November, we would both be in love with of Montreal.

Alright, so. A while ago, I ordered more than 500 free boxes for free from the USPS's website. For laughs.
The boxes came in yesterday afternoon.
The only one in my family who found it funny was Elaine. Everyone else was pissed. My mom threatened to not let me go to Macy's. I started crying then because my mom was making me feel like I can't do anything right. (Which I can't.)


But then Elaine said it's hilarious and I feel better.

Tomorrow for the love for god I hope I run into Melynda on the way to school.
I'm going to ask her what happened between us.

Tomorrow will be a long day. AP World test. Band'll be easy. Aviation is just always a joke. English test. Biology will be the same ol'. Geometry always sucks. Spanish fucking rapes me all the time. :(
Then when I come home, I get to babysit a rowdy-but-adorable two-year-old alone. Instead of doing my outline. And I probably won't even get paid.
Then at 7:30, I get to spend three hours on my outline and probably two hours on everything else.
I wouldn't really mind so much if it was likely that I'd get paid. If I do get paid, it'll be like. Ten bucks. For four hours, changing diapers, feeding, dealing with fits, and romping. I'm a greedy asshole, I know. And Lauren will probably get the money I worked for next week.

It's fucking awesome that I'm barely passing my classes and then they throw the responsibility of tending to a toddler at me.

i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself.

I find in inconvenient that my teachers go bitch on me whenever I feel like I should just destroy myself already. I seriously am not going to sleep today. I have to do my spanish work book, and then study a bunch for my AP World test.

I really hate Spanish.

I don't know how to fix things. Every time I try to tie loose ends, things get worse. When I don't, thinks get worse.
I'm doing bad grade-wise in school. I can't motivate myself to do spanish or biology or geometry. I just... can't. And it makes me feel bad but I feel like I can't fix it.

I'm going to hate band a lot next year. My section hates me. Every section hates me. And it's unfair because I love band so much but everyone fails to see that.

I don't feel like eating anymore and I just want to sleep and internet. And I feel like I have nobody but that's a lie because I have some really nice friends. And I feel like a bitch complaining about all of this and I really hate myself.

Dear Christine,

You are no longer my arch-nemesis. Just letting you know that you're doing better.
Thank you for getting me to stand up against Sweeney.

Love, Jillian Summer.